So, it’s Twenty Ten or Two Thousand and Ten as it seems most people are going to keep calling the year. We are experiencing a case of  ‘post millennial year naming convention confusion’. And I just made that up. It’s silly really, that we can’t all agree on what to call a year.

According to some linguistic experts, once we get to 2011 we’ll drop the two thousand and say ‘twenty eleven’ – because it rolls off the tongue better. And as for the decade, what on earth are they going to call this one? – the goodies? No, that would be absurd, about as ridiculous as calling the last one the noughties.

In case you haven’t noticed (probably because you have never been here before!), I have not posted much since this site went live in April of 2009. I was feeling a need to have an outlet for writing, writing that was not copy edited by someone else, or which even had to make sense to anyone but me. Sure enough, as soon as I had an ‘outlet’ the need dried up. Why I wonder? Distracted by too many other things? Or just lazy perhaps? After all, it is hard work writing, and even tougher work writing well. And even if I say to myself – it’s just your blog, it’s just for fun, I still can’t help but want to write well, be entertaining and informative – even if it is just for my own vanity.

Oh vanity. It gets us into all sorts of scrapes now doesn’t it? It makes us buy very un-sexy support knickers (like Bridget Jones’ panties), pay for disgustingly fit and attractive people to make us sweat and look our worst before we eventually look a ‘better version of ourselves’. Well, it’s New Year’s day and I am all for looking a better version of myself. That version happens to be quite a bit lighter and less rounder in girth. Every year, my resolutions include ‘get fit, lose weight’. This year, I actually believe I will do it. I’ve lost around 10 kilos already. I walk up a hill every day (well nearly every day) and have not one but two people working me out each week. I’ve never sweated so much in my life. I have a long way to go, and some days it feels like ‘mission impossible’, but others I am absolutely convinced I’ll get there.

Where is exactly ‘there’? I wonder that sometimes. I also wonder how did I get ‘here?’. It’s a universal question – at least one asked universally by those who have the time, and the luxury, of pondering on these things, and indulging in a spot of navel gazing. There for me, is not here. How very deep. It’s a better version of me, stronger, faster, leaner, happier. Able to leap tall buildings.

But I don’t believe in New Year resolutions! At least that’s what I tell everyone. Rather I believe in ‘year themes’. Such as ‘give back’ or ‘slow down’ and so on. This year I’ve decided my theme is ‘transformation’. Did you see what I did? I made the theme so wonderfully vague that it could relate to anything. Inner and outer transformation. Transforming myself into another relationship status…

Ok, so I’m going to indulge myself in a resolution list:

• Lose 20 kilos
• Get really fit (the kind of fit that intimidates people)
• Write in this blog every day, even if just a little bit (or if away in bush tramping, write in book and then write here)
• Design something every day, even if it’s just a doodle
• Get a little dog to love and spoil rotten
• Move somewhere I can have a little dog
• Keep taking photos, and know that when I don’t want to take photos, it’s just a phase
• Keep feeding the senses, but not feeding thy face
• Be more organised with paper work
• Get more assertive with your business
• Have more confidence in my design abilities (and stop freaking out by looking at top designer’s work)
• Go on lots of dates – even if just for the good stories that come out of it
• Give up junk food (ahhhhhhhhh)
• Be kinder to myself (no super late nights working on computer)

Well, I think that’s enough for one year. The twenty kilos is going to be interesting. I think should I lose that amount, my life will change in ways I can’t imagine. And because I also have the resolution of not being at the computer late at night and it is now 11.14pm, it is time to publish this post and go to bed.